7/25/10 12:05 pm
Wow. I never knew you read my LJ. Either that or some fat bitch is informing you again.
I"m sorry if I got the wrong idea and misunderstood. You may never acknowledge what you did, but I will always remember how you tried to come in between us a very long time ago. You don't know how much damage you've done to both of our lives (in different ways of course). Really disgusted by how you still can feel that you're all high and mighty and have done nothing wrong. As much as you want this game to end, I want it to end as well.
Problems, uncertainties, insecurity. All these strike one after another and I can really feel everything crumbling down. All the every bit of effort we've put in, seems to have gone to waste. I don't feel happy anymore and I don't know why; Just feel so disheartened right now and I know you feel the same. It hasn't been very long, only one month and we, or rather, I, screwed up our First month so badly yesterday. I really wanted us to last this time round, but it seems that nightmares from the past are repeating itself. It's definitely not helping that your ex girlfriend is trying to ask you to give me up for her. Definitely not helping.
I'm sorry if I've been complacent and taking things for granted. Probably it's all these things that are weighing down on me and thus I don't feel that happy anymore. I do want to learn how to treasure things and not cry over split milk after everything is over and cannot be salvaged. I wish I had the power to influence and change everything, but maybe i don't have to wish, maybe I could make that happen if I try hard enough.
Give it your best shot Seeyi. Try and turn things around, it's time you do something.
Hope the short meeting later turns out okay.